Our lives took a drastic turn, just 3 weeks before K’s registration for Primary 1.
No more looking at attending Primary 1 at hb’s alumni.
No more K2 at his existing Childcare, in fact no more formal school on the weekdays.
No more staying where we used to for the short 5 months in the not so new neighborhood in the East.
I teared when I had to withdrawn K from his Childcare with immediate notice, I teared when I saw the sadness in K’s eyes when we said our last goodbyes to his classmates from his school. We said that we will visit sometime. But I didn’t think we would, as it is just too painful for K and I to go through the goodbyes again. We left the place we called home for 5 months in a great hurry.
In summary, the family is dysfunctional at its best now.
I am now a single mom on Mondays-Fridays,
We still see Daddy, and we still spend time with him from Friday evenings – Sun nights in the East.
K is not going attend formal school till he starts primary 1, and we are just going to go to any primary school he can get into at Phase 2C.
And there a couple more not so good things which we are experiencing now, that I would not divulge in this space at this moment.
Frankly, life really sucks at its finest right now.
It goes on. I still have my responsibilities, and I am doing my best for them. We are managing ok and K’s still a happy little guy despite moving house 4 times in less than 2 years, and 3 schools in less than 2 years.
For someone who hates clutter at home, I think our abode is the simplest we ever had these 2 years. We are left with skimpy closet of clothes, some toiletries, less than 5 sets K’s toys in my mom’s house, and some books.
My mind has never been clearer, and there is no self-pity, no frustration, no anger, no questions to ask.
And now I think I know why it has never been in God’s plan for me to have another child, and I am thankful that I never went against His will for my life.
Most of all, I have learnt how to take my eyes off my circumstances, in all things give thanks for all I have been given and TRUST no matter what, and believe that there will be a purpose for all of this.
I have never felt more free from the shackles of this life, and for that, I am thankful.